No pain, no gain

What an amazing evening- surrounded by friends, great cause, and the one that got away. At least she looked at me slightly after almost two yrs. There wasn’t disgust in her eyes for once and tonight my heart feels lighter. I hope we can move forward. I truly want the best for her. I wish it had been me, yet I fucked that up. I don’t fuck up anymore. I gained insight and for that I’m grateful.