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Watching GLOW- it’s the best new show on Netflix. There’s a quote that is really powerful: “things just don’t happen, people make choices”. She chose to sleep with her best friend’s husband as my ex chose to sleep with her ex. Again, a couple more of “it just happened” moments with whomever during our tumultuous relationship. She was adamant about being a lesbian, yet I knew she was bisexual. We were both wrong in the end as she’s poly. I chose to react poorly. Regardless every experience is valuable. I forgive her. I forgive myself. I’ve let go of the anger in order to move forward. It still seeks up on me every now and again. Love and hate are tough feelings. It’s a fine line. I ask myself if I really loved her. I don’t know. I think I was in love with the idea.