It’s been a year and half since we were intimate. FWB worked for awhile except of course, I was caught up in my feelings. In hindsight, I realize that it was more lust, infatuation, and the challenge of being more significant in your life. I was terrible at communicating my true feelings and unfortunately, afflicted by many external factors. I do apologize for the “push pull” and you did give me quite a few chances to be a better partner. I wish I had been more receptive and listened to your actual words. You said it was you and of course, I heard “it’s me and a free ticket out”. And tbh, it truly was you and trying to figure out your sexuality and codependency. And in all fairness, I had so much of my own shit to work through as well. A lot of shit :(.
Anyway, for all it’s worth, I do hope you’re well and that you feel that deep connection with your new partners. Despite your reservations about me, I have forgiven myself. Your purpose has served me well and I thank you.
Perhaps someday if our paths should ever cross again, a cordial hello can be exchanged.
I do miss the opportunity loss of a friendship. You are a good person.
Happy Valentine’s Day.
Her mourning coffee 