You have no idea my dear how much I miss you. I loved those brief months with you and getting to know you. I am embarrassed that I liked you so much. I think I scared you off. I felt such hope that I had finally met a woman with depth, brains, beauty, heart, and of good character. And the sexual chemistry was palpable. I was in no hurry and willing to go through the obstacles of relationships and daily life, to see if we, as I suspected, had the potential for a life-changing relationship.
But I was partially wrong. You may lack in the heart/emotional area. You could not let yourself go or feel the same. I would have worked with you on these issues, but you had to end it too soon. I know you felt the same on some level. I felt it in your kiss (sometimes) and other brief moments when you would let your guard down. I wish you weren’t so afraid of intimacy. Your walls cost you a great woman who would go to great lengths for you, for us, for a wonderful life.
I have to pretend I do not care to try to move on and get over my heart ache. I will always want you in my life. I only wish you realized you made a big mistake before it is too late. Don’t be scared baby. Give us a chance and let me love you.
Her mourning coffee 