A thousand times

I think about her more than I should. Every time I hear Sara Bareilles’ song “1000 Times,” I think of her. The amount of energy spent has rendered myself broke. And I ask whoever is listening what’s the point?

Because I miss her, yet I keep my distance as she requested. If she only knew how passionately I loved her. If she only knew that I regret not being enough.

I go about the days without her. I am doing fine although my heart is sunk deep in my chest. I wonder if she ever thinks of me or was I a passing thought.