Not enough

I remember lying in your lap. You stroked my hair. The only time I felt calm and at peace.  I thought perhaps I found my best friend.  You were the best version of myself.  Then you said, you are going to hurt me.   I asked how. You said I wasn’t the one. I answered it was ok and I know.  That night you ripped my heart out of my chest.  I withdrew as I didn’t know what else to do.