It ends today.

Dear Father, I ask forgiveness. I beg of you to forgive me. The woman I love so dearly, so deeply. I crossed the line. I had no boundaries. I disrespected her. I disrespected her lover. i’ve become mad,obsessed infatuated, vulgar, psychotic, manic, borderline. It is sick. It is not me. I ask of her forgiveness. I ask of yours. I will sacrifice myself. God please give me the strength to get through my journey through this descent in the depths of hell. Exorcize my demons. please rid me of this evil that possesses me at night. It has been over a month. I am its vessel. What have I become? I hate myself. I am ashamed. I need you right now. It ends. Kill me or release her and release me.